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|Monday, October 24th, 2005|
|"Can you feel pain inside?"
Ah, it's nice to be needed...only when someone is seeking something from me. there are many examples, but the latest of which was my old friend Andrew, whom i haven't seen since graduation, and whom i haven't talked to in a decent amount of time. as soon as i signed on tonight, he IMs me looking for an aeration system for a fish tank [obviously he knows i work in a pet store]..and you know why he was looking for it? to make his own homemade beer. can't do the genuine "hey, how ya doing?" bit, just straight to the "equipment." tried to get a little side convo going, and he ends up ditching just like that. as many would say, "Good Times."
did i mention work fucking sucks? i had to work 6 days in a row this week [after being called in on one of my days off], got one off on sat, then i have 4 more. thank you Kelly, not only were you the reason i stayed 10 hours one day, but your bullshit once again fucked up my week when i needed that day off, but no, i had to go in because no one else could do it. she drives me up a fucking wall and i'm stuck working with her this week.
anyways, i'm done for now, especially since this will probably never be read by anyone other than myself...
|Sunday, May 22nd, 2005|
|just got in..
FUCKING AWESOME SHOW! FUCK YEAH! though the ticket situation is a bitch, and i officially made nothing off them, as Arielle backed out last minute and Eric and Ashley [siblings-in-law] came, it's not like i could charge them, and then i was out the 4th ticket. i walked straight in with all my gear [down my pants though], no pat down. got an awesome recording, it's just too low, but nothing a little editing won't fix. here's the setlist:
Sucker Train Blues
Do It For The Kids
Fall To Pieces
Dirty Little Thing
It's So Easy
Sex Type Thing
Set Me Free
Wish You Were Here
You Got No Right
During "Sex Type Thing" Scott ran to the back of the pavilion, and i kid you not, he was fucking 15 feet away from me...i was in fucking awe that he did that. i didn't have a camera, but damn were people taking pictures. he was on this divider of sorts between sections, and i was close to the end of the one he was facing the majority of the time, HELL YEAH! Scott saw me ;) BTW, Dave looked fucking funny with that "Mr. Clean" t-shirt on. i bought 2 shirts, a poster, and a program for $90! christ, but it was worth it..i fucking love this band! :rockthefuckon: Current Mood: ecstatic
|Saturday, May 21st, 2005|
|last minute jitters
well, today has proven to be quite interesting...first, today is the VR show, which i'm fucking excited about. second, there were 2 tickets available so far too, Arielle had to talk to one of her friends and my sister thought to ask her husbands sister. well, turns out Arielle's friend wanted to go, and so does my sis-in-law, but she won't go unless Eric does, so i tried calling Arielle before she talked to her friend, but i was too late. so now Arielle isn't sure if she wants to go, though she's trying to have a positive attitude about it and trying to focus more on the show itsself as opposed to who all is going. so now she's got to tell her friend, who she was trying to tempt me with, and doesn't think that'll go over too well, so i think i'm going to have to find some way to make it up to her, eventhough i don't know her.
Arielle's idea for the 4th ticket, if it was me, her and her friend Melissa, would be to scalp it in the parking lot. but i can't believe she was trying to lure me in by saying she was something to look at, and that since she's now on birth control for medical reasons, certain parts have become "more developed". she may be something to look at, but i don't like trying to be convinced with things like that. like ok, if i saw her, i might think she's hot or something, but if i'm taping and focusing on the show, i wouldn't be looking at her. come on...
what a disaster..
|Thursday, May 19th, 2005|
|what a wonderful update!
I'M OFFICIALLY SCREWED!!! AND NO, NOT THE PHYSICAL INTERCOURSE KIND'VE WAY EITHER!!!!
now Venus has backed out, and here i am running all over hell trying to find people to go. Alex said he knew two people that'd want to go, but haven't heard anything else about that, i couldn't get a hold of Arielle, so hopefully she'll call, and Melissa was a pal and put "word out" to two other people she thought would be most likely to go. i'm talking to Katie and apparently she said Jack was talking to Venus about her not going with me, and said she was going to stiff me, and added a "poor Chase" in there.
maybe this is one of lifes fucked up lessons, one i've got to really take to heart...don't plan to go to a concert, unless i'm going alone because no one would fucking go with me, and i'd just screw myself over every fucking time.
ok, so i drafted this over a half hour ago, and have since talked to Arielle, at least she's still going. there's a breath of fresh air...she said she'd ask some people tomorrow too, which is even better. boy am i glad she fucking called me back...
And I think I think too much
turns out Alex won't be going to the show, fucking great of him to let me know now, though i'd tried getting him a couple times. i called his house last night, and left a very detailed message with his mom because she was digging for more info. guess it's back to plan B of having Venus find someone, though he said he's got some friends that might want to go, i don't give a fuck who at this point so long as i get my money back.
on a lighter note, went to the movies and caught Star Wars Episode III, and all i have to say is it's fucking great! best lightsaber fight in the entire series. the effects were awesome as well, but i guess i can't really talk about all that because it'd more than likely bore you to death Bonnie..
|Saturday, May 14th, 2005|
|Shoot me... one more time
work sucks. i opened up with Venus, stuck with her for an hour and a half before Melissa came in. she just pisses me off with little shit. granted she wasn't as bad today as she normally is, there was one specific comment of hers that struck a nerve, hard.
she asked me first off if i had talked to her, which i thought was a little coincidental. but then when i told her that i told Jenn to fuck off, she went into this bit about "breaking down boundaries" and all. plus, just to piss Venus off all the time, i say that i'm god, so she was like "god doesn't hold any grudges" and shit like that. she wouldn't accept my reasoning, which i was extremely brief with, yet she does the same thing with, from what i heard anyways, her "first." though she says she still tries to be nice, bullshit, she was being a bitch to him a few months ago.
anyways, moving on...shortly before i left, there was one hell of a burden bestowed upon me..this guy found this wild bird, a grackle or some shit, thats what it sounded like anyways when the lady told me..but yeah, i got stuck with it. all the wildlife rescue numbers were to machines, the vet next door was closed and no one was there. i tried another, and they wouldn't because there wasn't a doctor there, which how the fuck can you be open until 3 without a doctor?! whatever, they got me in touch with this nice lady who does that sort've thing, but of course i wasted at least 20-25 min due to getting lost on the way. but she was nice, and it was just a baby. she was guessing there was an injury to it's back, it couldn't use it's legs. it might've fallen out of the nest. Melissa didn't think it would last through the night, but i figured i'd call in a couple days, see how it's doing.
but after all that, i stopped by my sisters to see her, Eric, Colby, and of course Nathan. what really sucked was that in the middle of our visit, Colby broke out with "cherry eye," which was disturbing, and my sister started flipping out. so i've got to try and ask her vet [right next to me, coincidentally] about it, see if me working next door gets me any sort've deal, because they've got to pop it back in, which sounds sick, but hey, if it helps. but i had to go back to work for closeout, which wasn't too bad, no problems, thankfully. Jack's back tomorrow, fucking great..it's been far more relaxed with him gone..
|Friday, May 13th, 2005|
|yet another GNR quiz..
Take the quiz: "What original member of Guns N' Roses are you most like?"
What to say about you? Well, for starters, i've nenver felt so sorry for anyone im my life. Chucked outta your band by everyone you though were your friends. Actually, you seen them more as family. Please don't kill yourself! Those who put you down are not worth it! You were made for greater things and even though you may not believe it, you still have hundreds and thousands of fans.
|All I've got is precious time..
wow, i was bored and saw this on a VR board, and though i didn't know hardly any of the questions, look what i fucking got:
Well, what can I say?
Either you know the band personally, spend far too
much time reading up on them, or you cheated
and took the answers off of Rockfic.
Either way I'm impressed. Have a cookie!The Rockfic Guns N' Roses Trivia Quiz brought to you by Quizilla
that's the fucking highest too! i kick ass ;)
|Thursday, May 12th, 2005|
|FREE AT LAST!!!!!!!!
i fucking did it Bonnie, i was going nuts, but finally told her off...check this out:
NotForNothing01: tell me...why exactly are you trying to feed me all this bullshit? what greater goal are you working toward? it's not like you'd need me for anything anyways
Blueyez0486: excuse me?
Blueyez0486: i will get out of your life completely Chase if that's what you're hinting at
Blueyez0486: especially with that attitude of yours, i am only trying to be nice but instead you interpret it as "bull shit"...thanks a lot...
Blueyez0486: but don't ever expect to hear from me again
NotForNothing01: oh, i was just wondering why it seems so important to you that we talk?
Blueyez0486: that's for sure
Blueyez0486: what the hell?
Blueyez0486: i only IMed you to tell you what my dad said
Blueyez0486: something YOU asked me
NotForNothing01: right, but in general
Blueyez0486: and look who continued to talk
Blueyez0486: i will leave you alone
Blueyez0486: and that is a promise
NotForNothing01: all i'm asking is why you need me when you've got everything you could ever want with Max...plus your parents approval for him
Blueyez0486: is that what this is all about? Max?
Blueyez0486: god Chase, does it even matter to you that i still care for my first love?
NotForNothing01: and yet you said when we were on "break" you didn't cheat on me....i find that hard to believe "JC heart MA"
Blueyez0486: you think i cheated on you
NotForNothing01: no, i did then, remember?
Blueyez0486: so why did you just say you find that hard to believe that i didn't?
NotForNothing01: so when'd you get with him? the day after? like you did with me?
Blueyez0486: January thank you very much
NotForNothing01: oh, same day? wow, moving up
NotForNothing01: "just friends"...my fucking ass you were
Blueyez0486: sorry i IMed ya
Blueyez0486: you'll never hear from me again:-D
NotForNothing01: ya know i am too....so once and for all, FUCK OFF, FUCK YOU (*)
Blueyez0486: right back at ya;-)
NotForNothing01: fuck all your fucking friends too
Blueyez0486: anger managment, eh?
Blueyez0486: something you should consider
NotForNothing01: i'm sorry we ever got together, it was obviously a mistake...one i'll be paying for the rest of my fucking life
Blueyez0486: goodbye chasten
(*) this "FUCK YOU" was as big as it could've possibly been :D
she blocked me right after that, but like i fucking care..i'm fucking free, now i can get back on track about trying to forget her..this was bound to happen though, there's no two ways about it, i couldn't deal with all the emotional baggage that was coming back, it was best locked away and on it's way to being completely forgotten. and now, all i can say, and yet am so appropriately listening to, is:Take me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Oh, won't ya take me home
you have no idea how truly relieved, both mentally and physically, i am to have gotten that over with..because yes, i was feeling it physically..in my stomach..it was like that feeling when you're really nervous or anxious about something, and you hate waiting..it was that moment where you just let it all fucking out, and it feels really fucking good to have finally gotten it off your chest.
Goddamn, i'm in a much better mood and mindset now :D :D :D :D :D
What we've got here is... failure to communicate
so the past truly has come back to bite me in the ass, something i should've been smart enough to just avoid all together the other night. not only was i dumb enough to talk to her, then her dad, she came back the next day [luckily i was away] and was referring to it..and i'm sure she's going to try to talk to me tonight, when she "gets back from class".
how do i know that? it's her away message..and in her profile, she has the bullshit JC [heart] MA - MA could only be one person, that fucker max. so i was right all along, so tonight, after i find out a few minor details, i'm going to tell her to go fuck herself, because i can't talk to her anymore, and it's not just because of that. before i was ok, might've thought about certain memories and all, but now it's come back 10 times harder, which i don't want.
i hate to kill myself slowly like this...and i really hope Elyse was right about forgetting about her when [though i'd say IF] i get another girlfriend..only problem is creating a catalyst for that to happen. it's been pretty lonely lately, especially with, well lets just say "tension" between my parents, and Bud, leaving no one to talk to until i'm at work, and even then it's "slim pickings." i suppose i'm in the same mindset, to a degree anyways, that i want somebody to be with, someone who would be there to talk, someone there to shoot the shit with, someone to just enjoy spending time with.
speak of the devil..i get interupted in typing this a couple times, and here she is...fucking great...someone needs to put me out of my fucking misery, and quick..
|Wednesday, May 11th, 2005|
|I won't be told anymore...That I've been brought down in this storm..
boredoms struck, and so i decided to post this here instead of posting it as a comment in your lj Bonnie:
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
now i can agree with most of that, except the "not suited for a monogamous relationship" part...fuckers, what a crock of shit..
|Sunday, April 24th, 2005|
|"What in the Fuck Happened to Our Trailer Park?"
by recommendation of a friend of mine. this is some canadian show and he made it out to be the funniest shit in the world. i saw the first season and it wasn't too funny. the dude on the left, Ricky, and the dude on the right, Julian, are in and out of jail for stupid shit. i'll admit some of it is mildly entertaining, but in a way, Ricky is just so fucking stupid. perfect example: after coming back from jail, his girlfriend kicked him out, he wasn't cool with Julian anymore, and his dad was drunk, so he had nowhere to go. he ends up sleeping in Julians car and starts growing pot again with four tiny little plants, plus he steals Bubbles' [he's the dude in the center] cat.
apparently its on BBC America on sundays, maybe i'll check up on the current season, or do what i've been doing and just downloading the fucking thing.
so when my sister got home on friday, she started flipping out because Colby, above, grawled at the baby. so guess who got to babysit? yup, me. don't get me wrong, he's not too bad, minus getting up from resting just because you left the room, and needing to sleep in a bed [yeah, i got blessed with that as well, and he just has
to sleep between my legs]. he just doesn't seem to want to poop much when he's here, which is quite unfortunate.
but my sister was flipping out to the point of wanting to give him up, and while it wouldn't be much of a hassle for us, my dad has to be a dick and say that, no matter what, we wouldn't take him. he swears he's psycho because he snapped at him A YEAR AND A HALF AGO. GET THE FUCK OVER IT! yet right now, as i type this, they're sitting together on the couch. not sure how much longer he's staying, he's been here since friday afternoon, so hopefully, for his sake and getting used to the baby and all, he'll go home during the week.
|Thursday, April 21st, 2005|
|Yeah, here comes the water...
A month to go until the Velvet Revolver show at Merriweather Post Pavilion, Columbia, MD on 5/21/05. i've still got 3 tickets and have yet to find anyone really interested in going. Arielle's mentioned it, apparently Venus wants to go, but i haven't had any definates and sure as hell haven't gotten any money for the tickets. i'm slowly running out of time, and out of options, but worse come to worse i'll have to ask the bro-in-law, though i'd prefer not to because the baby was just born. if only i had some friends around here..at least those who could 1, put up with me, and 2, be interested in going.
|Eric Nathan Green, JR
as of tuesday, April 19, i'm an uncle thanks to my sister..
time: 2:10 AM
weight: 6 lb 6.7 oz
so needless to say, i was dead tired by the time i got home, which was 4:30 AM, and was rudely awakened by 12. plus i had to get up early the following morning, and was up late, for work. i didn't catch up on sleep until last night, though i can feel i still need to do more catching up. here's a pic of him:
|Friday, April 8th, 2005|
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|Thursday, March 24th, 2005|
|subject? can't think of one..
i'm pretty bored...had the day off so i woke up late, and watched movies. "Me, Myself & Irene" and "Pauly Shore Is Dead." i've been on a bit of a comedy kick lately. though the other day i did throw in the first season of the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles cartoon. :D that took me back..i used to watch every episode when i was younger, but somehow gave it up in '93 or '94, something like that, before the series even finished. guess i just "grew out of it."
anyways..i'm killing myself financially right now. i've got like $34 left in my checking account after spending a shitload at Best Buy, EB Games, and GameStop this week. and i probably could've waited on The Matrix Online from GameStop, instead of going and blowing $50 the other day. not to mention my car insurance bill came in, fucking $650 for 6 months, goddamn that's a lot. i probably won't even get to play the damn thing for a couple weeks either due to space on my computer, and even after that watch there be something else my computer is lacking to play it. :\
i got preoccupied with looking at random shit in typing this, so yeah, i've lost my train of thought...that is all for now.. click
|Wednesday, March 16th, 2005|
so today not only was my dad a dick, but i managed to spend over $100 in about 30 min, and i went to go see Hostage
, which was surprisingly good. i'm not what you'd call a Bruce Willis fan, though i've seen a few things he's been in. this was a cool one, suspenseful and all that stuff...great twist for the ending too, and there was one character, Mars, who was completely psychotic to the point of actually being cool to watch, and to have conflicts with that type of character. yeah, eventhough there were 5 people in the theater, including myself, it was pretty good. i didn't particularly like the opening credits though, can't exactly put my finger on why, i guess because i felt it was out of place..
saw, once again, the trailer for Sin City, which also stars Bruce Willis alongside three of the hottest chicks one could ask for in a movie: Jessica Alba, Brittany Murphy, and Alexis Bledel..Alba is apparently an exotic dancer, Murphy is made out to look like some sort've crack whore, and Bledel is just a nice girl on the street ;) since i'm such a loser, i'll probably post one of my lame, pointless-because-no-one-sees-them reviews on it. that is all for now... Current Mood: blah
|Sunday, March 6th, 2005|
|I'm in shock..
OK, so i ran off for a few to play a bit of a game because i was bored as fuck on here..and what do i see? DAVE NAVARRO IMED ME
! how fucking cool is that?! it fucking sucks that i missed it though, and since i've been back he's been idle/away..guess i need to stay up a little later to see what he wanted to say, or ask, or whatever. great, now all i can do is wonder wtf he was IMing me for..this is quite the mind job right here...
shameless self-promotion:[NotForNothing] - [Dave Navarro]
^ yeah, that's MY site :D
|"Life is full of little disappointments..."
yeah, what the subject says...turns out that the biggest disappointment in 2005 is the following:The Crow: Wicked Prayer
is going straight to DVD on 7/19.
why is this a disappointment? i'd been expecting to see it in theaters, and have it be the first Crow movie i was able to go see at the theater. but no, second in a row that's going straight to DVD. what a shame...but i guess the bright side is that it's at least coming out, and sometime this year, i've been waiting for this damn thing for a long time! >:( at least since last summer.
other than that, just about everyone who said they wanted to go to the VR show with me has some reason as to why they can't...so at this point in time, i'm stuck with 3 extra tickets, and well, could really afford to use the money right about now as i just put $250 in my checking account a week ago, and have worked my way down to like $80 or so. goddamn website renewal charges..oh, and my never-ending addiction to gamestop ;) Current Mood: discontent